We went to a very nice restaurant in Nephi.
The food was delicious. I enjoyed meeting my date finally after chatting for a couple of months.
The next day was a long day. I set my GPS on my phone to go from Fillmore and a Maverick gas station break, for gas, Maple bar, yummy, coffee and most importantly, the bathroom.
Then another chunk of driving to Beaver UT to do the same thing, except no maple bar. I did have to stop and get a photo with the Beaver 🦫
I also stopped at the Timberline restaurant in Beaver. Yummy food and I got some writing done. Then more driving, more stopping to use the bathroom until finally I made it to Mesquite. Stayed at the Virgin River Casino motel. Nice room, but no coffee pot, microwave or mini fridge in the room. Rude! I did go to the pool and soak a little and then sat on a lounge chair and read.
In the past I would never have gone to the pool alone. With a husband in the past I did, but never alone. As I was driving yesterday I had a lot of time to think about my fears. This one about going to the pool alone was from being body judged as I was growing up. My parents always made comments on how my body looked. My self esteem was shot. There is so much more about what went on and it was ugly. Anyway, I got to thinking, no one at the pool knows me and will never see me again, so it should not really matter what they think. I told myself, put on your new swimsuit (it is a modest style) wrap your fancy towel around your waist, grab your Kindle, glasses, room key and get on our there. Get out there and enjoy yourself. Put the ugly comments from your childhood in the garbage and go. You have driven several hundred miles by yourself. Going into the pool is nothing.
Tomorrow I will continue on my Travels With Jeep adventure. Do I feel lonely. No, not really. I'm alone but not lonely. Of course, I would like to have had a partner with me to enjoy this. However, I don't think that I would be healing, and that is what I need. Ciao, my friends ❤️
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